So I Continue to Pretend My Life Will Never End

Parenting a child with autism alone while dealing with domestic violence. The results of pouring all your energy into your children and then paying for it with your health, possibly even your life.

Lawyers and Legal Theater

A General Observation of Attorneys: Corrupt, Money Laundering and Parasitic Lawyers generally are not to be trusted. In the years when my father was practicing as an attorney- over three decades past and his father before him in the 1950s and on-I believe that there was still some semblance of legal ethics. Still some regardContinue reading “Lawyers and Legal Theater”

To Keep Fighting The Abuser or To Give Up

A narrative of personal nature that is also unfortunately affecting many women who choose to leave their abusers with whom they share children. I didn’t know abuse could manifest in emotional and psychological manipulation until about a decade ago. I used to think insults, controlling my movements and treating me as a subject or objectContinue reading “To Keep Fighting The Abuser or To Give Up”

The Slow Loss of my Daughter to her Abusive Father

He didn’t want me to have a baby. That’s when it started. He tried to first convince me I was imagining the pregnancy, what purpose that would serve, I don’t know. Then once it was clear, he began to harass and pick at me, hoping I would become so anxious I would have a miscarriage.Continue reading “The Slow Loss of my Daughter to her Abusive Father”

To Shoshana, wherever I May Find Her…

My only daughter. There were so many smiles, so many laughs, so much happiness until we learned that this was temporary. The love would always stay, but dampened, stamped upon, ground out like old pieces of wood…no longer useful to the owner. And owner there is. Despite the life being harvested, nurtured and flourished byContinue reading “To Shoshana, wherever I May Find Her…”

Family court will break you and force you to hide what you could have treated

You cannot go in for therapy. You cannot. You cannot admit any personal defects. Against the rules. You must be perfect at all times. No exaggeration here. Feelings are to be kept to oneself always. They are not allowed in family court. They are not allowed amongst parents- period. As long as the government isContinue reading “Family court will break you and force you to hide what you could have treated”

Coparenting with the Narcissist: Part 2- From the Frying Pan Into the Fire

I had only been in a romantic relationship with the narcissist (Guy) for about a year and a half- at the most. But choosing to have a child with him ensured that the abuse would continue for many more years. I didn’t know this when I chose to keep the baby. I was told byContinue reading “Coparenting with the Narcissist: Part 2- From the Frying Pan Into the Fire”

Coparenting with a Narcissist: Part 1

This story is for my daughter, whom I hope will understand. It’s been over seven years since I left my abusive ex boyfriend and I feel like the abuse continues just in a different way and I don’t know how much more I can take. I dated the guy, let’s call him “Guy”, for aContinue reading “Coparenting with a Narcissist: Part 1”

Custody Battle with Sociopath Trauma

Gotta get something off my mind. It’s not technically political but when you think about it- what isn’t political in some way? We all go through personal tragedies in our lives. It’s part of life. Some tragedies are harder to move on from and take longer. Before a couple years ago, I was in selfContinue reading “Custody Battle with Sociopath Trauma”